I've never “gotten” running.
I have friends who talk about how they hate the first mile, but then the endorphins kick in and… that's usually where I tune out.
I've never wanted to be a runner.
Now, don't get me wrong… I've tried it. I did some Couch to 5k last year when I was preparing for my duathlon, but I never did click over from the mantra of “I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this.”
I can ride my bike for MILES. The first time I took my bike out last year, I did 16 miles without even thinking about it.
I got on my bike in my driveway, and when I looked up, I was approaching a footbridge that I know is more than 8 miles from my house.
But running? I struggled to round the loop around our block, I was so miserable.
I'm a cute flats kind of girl; I don't even wear sneakers when I'm out running errands.
And then the 2013 Boston Marathon happened, and someone set off bombs at the finish line.
The killed and maimed people, including 8-year old Martin Richard, who was waiting for his Daddy to cross the finish line.
I don't “get” running, but the people in that marathon did, and someone took their lives, limbs, and sense of safety from them.
And now I'm pissed.
And I want to run a marathon.
I want to run to prove we're better than that.
I want to run for the people who won't be able to after yesterday.
I want to run as a big EFF YOU to the people who did that.
I want to run a marathon.
Am I crazy?
I've never wanted to be a runner.
But I do now.
I get it. And I am with you.
I feel as if I could’ve written this myself. I’m not a runner. At all. I don’t understand my friend’s love for it, but now? I want to try.
Glad I’m not alone in this. I feel like I can’t do anything BUT this, yanno?
I woke up last june 4 and decided i was going to run. with arthritis. i ran a half marathon feb 24 and have hated every single step of the way… except the last 5 steps that take me over the finish lines. i get this. i do.
You’re amazing, Jana, and I admire you even more knowing this. XOXO
I too WAS never a runner, I could not even begin to understand why people would run for fun. Then one day out of the blue, after dating a college runner (who mind, you didn’t run anymore) I decided to enter my first 5k race, without ever running in my life except for in Freshmen PE. September 18, 2005 was the day that I will never forget that my love/hate relationship began for running. I also said I had no desire to ever run a full marathon, god and body willing I will conquer 26.2 miles this year in honor of Boston.
I have no doubt you will, Linds!
Your posts about your runs are totally inspiring and amazing to me!
And, you look fab in your track jacket! LOL
I’m not a runner, but I agree. I want to put on running clothes and run… run in defiance of fear and in solidarity with those who ran yesterday.
Lynsey @MoscatoMom says
I have been a half-ass, wanna be runner for the last year… today all I want to do is run. Just run. I’ve worn my last 5k race shirt all day. People have seen it and just silently nodded. We all want to run.
Yup. I want to run too, and I’m not even half-assed!
But I feel totally helpless, and I have to find somewhere to put my energy.
I just started really running at the beginning of this year. I did the couch 2 5K a couple of years ago, ran a 5K, then didn’t run again for 2 years. I started back up as a fluke when a friend invited me to join her and a group of moms for a Sat morning run. I somehow ran over 4 miles with them and surprised myself that I was able to do it. So I joined them the next week and the next. Then I started running during the week on my own. Now I am running my first half marathon in May and I feel the same way. Up until yesterday I was feeling behind and discouraged that I wasn’t following a real training program but just going out and running whenever I can. Then yesterday happened and now I know I can conquer it.
That’s amazing, and makes me want to find a group to join.
You got this!
Jessica Ballard says
I “get” running. I enjoy it, and never did growing up. I Love the downtime, the quiet time of my day. I LOVE it, you probably get the feeling I get while cycling. I have been easing up the C25K for a year now lol, but I don’t give up. I want to run the Boston Marathon now. We want to say We aren’t scared, we will still run. We will still come. My husband now wants to join in the running too. The terrorists didn’t realize how it would instead Ignite our spirit and Ignite our fire.
It would be amazing to run in the Boston Marathon, for sure!
I’m just SO over all of this craziness, it breaks my heart.